Wordy Wednesday- Maintenance May

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Hello NYDreaming followers and family!

It has been AGES, (almost a year to be exact) since my last post on ye olde blog. That being said, 2016 and much of 2017 has been a whirlwind adventure. Both on the global and personal stage, changes have been rampant and it has definitely been a little difficult to juggle everything seamlessly in the air. That being said, I am a little under a month away from my 28th birthday and it got me thinking to what was missing in my life.

And naturally, my old Word Press account floated into my head!

It’s sometimes funny to think, that when I started this blog three years ago, it was out of necessity.

Necessary to leave my apartment. Necessary to not become bogged down with disappointment that I didn’t go to that audition or book that role, or follow up on that email. Necessary to find beauty in the grit and grime of New York City, the place I now fondly call home. Necessary to build new routines, go on new adventures, and just say “Hey, let’s see what happens, and try not to spend too much money.”

Suffice it to say, in the past 12 months there has been a shortage of DOWNTIME and as a result NYDreaming fell by the wayside. But like I always say when this occurs, dreaming is fine and dandy but acting on those dreams is what I always wanted in the first place!

Now back to the blog and my BIRTHDAY!!!

As the title of this post suggests, it’s Maintenance May for me. I never realized how much I missed a monthly theme, until I didn’t force myself to have one! LOL. This month, I’m really focusing on what makes me, ME! Taking time to fine tune the machine (working out and eating right), listening to what my heart and mind are telling me (blogging, journaling, and writing new poems), and making sure I’m in tip-top shape to change the world (pre-production and development for Shampagne season two). Acting is in no way on the back burner (melissamickens.com) and I’m hitting new benchmarks on the directing and teaching front at Stella Adler Studio!

Maintenance May is the undercurrent of the month because I want to finish 27 strong, so that 28 is just ready to pick up the baton and hit its stride.

June 8th, it will be wheels up back down to St. Thomas to ring in the day with my bestie, Cynthia! A time to fully relax, slow down and have some serious girl time with one of my very best friends, (the other will be getting a visit from me come fall, San Francisco I’m coming for ya!)

The post is wordy. The theme is in place. The world keeps spinning.

NYDreaming I missed you and so glad to be back.

Ciao,

M

Wandering Wednesday

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It’s pretty short and sweet this week for Wandering Wednesday. Hard to believe that tomorrow marks my last day on the messenger route for awhile, but at least I’ll get to wander to some old and new places again. Most of these were actually taken on Friday after work, when the weather was pretty pleasant and I decided to walk from 42nd street over to Magnolia Baker on 68th and Columbus.

Ciao 🙂

Wordy Wednesday

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An Etching —

it’s a softened slope

a warm canvas waiting for my paintbrush to fill it with movement, feeling and completion.

it has a mind of its own

a rhythm, a cadence, a time signature that is hard to understand

but as my study delves into its intricate layers, i find the the familiar

a gripping pulse that leads me to use my hands

giving my finger pads permission to explore on my terms

for its benefit.

a living, breathing form takes shape

the beat that lives within it begins to capture my heart

including me in its breath

“breath” being the only word i can think to describe it

because once it has taken hold i barely give it a second thought

i have already acknowledged it has burrowed into my skin

preparing its new home for your paintbrush, your vision, your melody

the painting you choose to etch into my body, my heart, my soul

Say YES! October

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Man oh man, am I happy I waited an extra day before writing my monthly theme post for October. In the past 48 hours, my brain has been humming with so many creative ideas that I have FINALLY started to put them down on paper. (This is truly a big deal, let me tell you.)

I was on the subway this morning, furiously writing when a thought struck me: The last time I was this excited, scared, and thrilled was when I decided to publish my first blog post. And lo and behold, eighteen months later, I am now writing, on said blog, about my next creative foray.

I honestly don’t want to give too many details at the moment, because everything is still incubating in my mind. It really makes sense that the week New York is finally embracing autumn the next chapter in my career’s journey begins.

So with that vague set-up in mind my monthly goals are to say “YES!” A resounding yes, to all of the opportunities that are coming my way, that I’m not even aware of. William Shatner said it best:

“Why say “yes”? “Yes” means opportunity. “Yes” makes the dots in your life appear. And if you’re willing and open, you can connect these dots. You don’t know where these dots are going to lead, and if you don’t invest yourself fully, the dots won’t connect. The lives you make with those dots always lead to interesting places. “No” closes doors. “Yes” kicks them wide open…..As long as you’re able to say “yes”, the opportunities keep coming, and with them, the adventures. Say “no” to fear and complacency. Keep saying “yes” and the journey will continue.”
William Shatner, Shatner Rules: Your Guide to Understanding the Shatnerverse and the World at Large

Second, I want to fully embrace all that the season has to offer. With my Fall Firsts bucket list, I’ll be able to explore the city in a new way, finding new favorite places, getting to know some of the other boroughs a little bit better, and becoming more comfortable with enjoying my own company. One of the things I love most about living in this city is that there is always something new to discover, even if it has technically been here the whole time. Discovery is a great thing, and I really want to dive in head first!

Super duper ecstatic about this month and can’t wait to look back on it in November with a humongous smile on my face!

Ciao 🙂

 

Tuesday Thoughts

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i saw a ghost today

at least…

i think i did.

the air suddenly grew thick

like a hot July afternoon in the heart of Jackson.

my muscles were unable to relax

as beads of perspiration clung to my back and neck.

almost, in an instant a wave of memory both real and illusion

flooded my mind as i tried to navigate the now confusing and expansive halls.

i saw a ghost today

at least…

i believe i did

it felt like the shadow of night enveloped all of my surroundings and there was

a beam of moonlight sharpening the focus of he and i.

the radiance of the heavens left a chill on my exposed limbs and face

the creeping spiders of sensations, both past and forgotten, began to travel

down my spine

attempting to awaken so many things hidden and buried

forgotten, but still clear, even while the edges had begun to fade.

i saw a ghost today

at least…

that’s what he’s become to me.

no longer a symbol of all that was:

the hope, trust, faith and confidence of a not-too-distant yesterday

no longer an open-ended question

filled with pregnant guilt and shame

…no

now he is a warning to all who may come after

the cautionary tale that nothing is promised

no matter the drive, focus, or sheer talent and skill.

 

no one should see the ghost i saw

yes,

the ghost i know i saw today

the thick air, the chill from the moonlight’s gaze

i wish upon no one, whether friend or for.

there is so much change occurring in the world around us

our spirits wander this globe fervently in search of one another

wishing to inject joy, love, and magic into each life we touch and see

be the light

see that light

yearn for that light in others.

that way when you cross a ghost’s path,

you won’t be cloaked in their shards of darkness