Jumpin’ July

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We have hit the seventh month of the year everyone! Number 7! I don’t know about you but the first half of 2016 went by like a bullet train. I know the saying goes that the older you get the quicker time seems to rush by, but I’m not that old! LOL

May and June were a whirlwind of activity, dormancy and change.

  • The season finale of Shampagne was released.
  • I produced my first critically acclaimed off-off-off  broadway play (Thanks NY Times)
  • I directed my first full length production (#teachingartist)
  • I did a few readings and an awesome show at ANT Fest
  • Celebrated my grandmother’s 90th
  • Went to the Jersey shore for the first time

Those are the highlights, couple of lowlights too, but no one’s life is all ups all the time, right?

Anyhoo,

July 🙂

New month needs a theme, motivation, quotes and all that jazz. More than that, I realized that by not blogging, I actually wasn’t tracking my feelings either. This space is where I actually get to take a minute, breathe, and tune in to what I want for myself. A place to be honest and right now? I need that.

Cool. July! Here’s to you! May you be hot, steamy, challenging and fun 🙂

Ciao

 

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Thursday Thoughts

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Let me be honest. The past few weeks have been a bit of a blur, between Netflix marathons, a trip or two, hanging with friends and avoiding this blog (haha), the end of April and beginning of May have been a bit of a wash. Yeah sure, I’ve been submitting for auditions and work, as well as garnering a callback or two, but I think it could be safe to say that I haven’t been especially happy. Don’t get me wrong, happiness and joy are two completely different things, and if there wasn’t joy in my heart who knows if I would even be writing this post, but maybe this has a bit to do with the birthday that looms before me. The big 2-5! The age when the last big hurdle is crossed (I get to rent a car free of the additional insurance charge), when high school is truly beginning to fade, and the envious look you gave to recent college grads flooding the D train to Yankee Stadium no longer sneaks across your face. As I wrote last week, 2014 is definitely going to be a year of great change, the beginning of a new era here in the city, new friends on the horizon, and new lessons to be learned or enforced.

I think I fear it. :/

oops, was i not supposed to say that? am i not allowed to admit that i am afraid of the unknown? i mean i look around and my friends and family definitely have more bonafide reasons for this feeling, babies on the way, weddings and marriages to plan and begin, grad school to begin or complete, careers to find and jobs to fall in love with.

what’s big deal for me huh? i guess it’s simply because i have reached a point where i need to stop holding onto my “security blankets.” the friends, places, people, experiences, and patterns i have grown comfortable with. while comfort isn’t necessarily a bad thing, it also urges you to find the next comfort level. time to take the bull by the horns as it were and really leap off the cliff into my new “being.”

I’m just spewing here, because I consider my blog to be a safe place, and if you’re reading this and are either experiencing these same ideas or have just moved past them, feel free to comment below. really interested to get feedback on what you think and how you’ve coped and successfully moved into your new “comfort level.”

Ciao 🙂

May Change Be With You?

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I hate change! The cat is out of the bag. The only problem is that life cant really move forward without it. Sigh. I suppose the theme for the month of May is simply embracing the change that is about to come. Whether I like it or not. In the next two months, my New York family will experience tremendous loss. This may seem a little over the top and dramatic but hey I’m an actress so accept it and just read on! (Hahaha).

My rocks, Cynthia and Morgan, are about to embark on the next phase in their life’s story. Both I have lived with: in college (Morgan) and after (Cynthia) . Each are huge pieces in my own story, the memories we’ve shared, the conversations we’ve had, and the support we have offered to one another over the past seven years. Earlier this week, I found myself on NYU’s main campus and the question I couldn’t shake hit me: “Has it really been three years since Tisch Salute and Commencement at Yankee Stadium? Three years since my classmates and I no longer depended on the regimented schedules of class, studio time and essay deadlines to dictate how we should manage our time to make the exorbitant fees of NYU worth it?”
For many reading this post, I sense, you may feel the same. For others, it may cause you to think back to the time you stood in my shoes, perhaps with a small grin on your face thankful those days are past. Either way, with Morgan and Cynthia’s departures an era is coming to an end. While the friendships, I hope, will continue to grow and adapt to these new changes I must also change with it. Embracing the unknown to come with wonder and excitement not fear and trepidation for what lies on the path to come.
After all spring signals change, renewal, birth and beginnings. With that to consider,  I once again  find myself exactly where I am meant to be.  🙂

Ciao

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Recovery

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So, last week definitely felt like I was in a Lifetime movie. There were mysterious, late-night phone calls, nerve wracking conversations with parental figures, an underlying feeling of anxiety and an abrupt ending to my current status quo. All in all, while I can’t go into specifics, I will say that this experience opened my eyes anew to the blessings I have been given my entire life. Talk about thankful for the family I have and the friends that still have a place in my heart! While I don’t wish the situation I went through on anyone, I do hope that there are times in the month, week, or day where you are able to take stock of all the good you have in your life and have an inward calm about it!

In other news….

Stepping away from that ordeal (dramatic? maybe, but not by much) I went into the flurry of tech weekend, for my next show, OBAMA: AT THE TABLE, AN OBAMAOPERA, which could have been a real drag if my friend Jassmine and Bloo were not a part of the production. While I can’t say that the weekend was smooth sailing, I did end up heading to central Harlem Friday night for some Double Chocolate Cake at Make My Cake, and Amy Ruth’s for The Barack Obama (a fried chicken dinner with collards and fried okra) complete with diabetic coma-inducing sweet tea.

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But I think one of the best things about this weekend, is that nature really was beginning to shed its winter coat and bring on the sunshine!!!! Even when you haven’t been outside yet, the entire city starts telling you that the cold days are almost over: there are more people on the sidewalks, the first street fair (I’ve seen anyway) is camped out on 6th avenue between 24th and 27th street, the NY Parks crew is prepping Bryant park with fresh mulch and a mowing, and everybody’s shoulders seem to carry a little less tension. 😉

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