there is a place for you here
inside, you’ll find a hook for your coat
a spot for your shoes
and a chair to ease your weary feet.
there is a space for you here
inside of my heart
where the caverns and vessels have been cleared for your presence
to pump in and out of me
becoming a part of me
you are welcome here
you are wanted here
you are already here
will you find your place, your space, your nook in the crannies left waiting for you?
better yet, is there a space inside of you as cozy, as warm, as welcoming for me?
or is your door rusted shut, with the curtains drawn and the lights sitting dormant waiting for the true resident to fill this vacancy of yours?
it comes and goes
in and out
the loud thunder, the sweet thrill of the waves
bashing the shore with its cold and gritty hands
it knows not what it does
but instead keeps to its steady rhythm,
the dance it has done for thousands of years.
leaving and returning
churning the granules of sand, shells, and rock to our feet.
the gifts from a world completely separate from our own
a dark, cold place populated with its own citizens
conversing in the languages originated from the pulls of the moon
a third world
so distant, yet so overreaching
if the waves were able to reach to the sky what new and different things would it say?
would it be easier to understand
or would even more questions flutter to the surface, revealing new mysteries for us to solve?
on and on and on
attacking and retreating
the sands of the world.
i miss you.
it isn’t the physical missing that i feel, but its the constant presence of you.
sure, you’re in my thoughts, my days,
and i hate to admit aloud,
but the nearness of you is what i miss
the way the air changes when you’re in it
how the electric spark is not as strong when you go missing
not for long
only for a day, an hour, a moment
but the longing i feel compounds on top of itself and i wonder
is this what happens when you’re miles below the earth
or in deep, dark, unchartered waters
with no flicker of sunlight or starlight remind you of the sky
to discover or feel the absence of you is unfair
because none of these feelings would exist
if you hadn’t discovered
there it is again
that feeling that has long been dormant
filling me up again, from the inside out
there’s nothing i can do to stop it now that it has fled its cage.
Like a moth mesmerized by the light
flapping its wings fervently expecting to be warmed by the glowing orb in front of it
To be overcome with the weightlessness of contentment
ecstatic to come face-to-face with the object that will be able to take it higher
soaring into the air
like a bright red balloon released into the heavens
To ride the unpredictable gales and tempests of the sky
Soaring up, up, up
expanding in the marvelous heat
until there is a POP!
That feeling is back again, that wonder is back again
The glow of endless possibilities as encompassing as the ocean is vast
now lives within me again.
Spurring me forward, heating my bosom,
firing my imagination, cooling my self doubts
spiriting my creativity…
The smile you see
that is the physical embodiment of that feeling,
and that self-satisfying POP!
The rush is unimaginable
the heart-pumping giddiness is catching
Don’t stand too close!
or else that effervescent ZING will engulf you on the spot!
There are no words to express the profound connection we have
our twosome will stand the test of time
the laughter shared
the inside jokes used against mom
the deep political and social discussions we have face-to-face and on the phone
the numerous business schemes developed over the years
the soccer games coached
the plays you’ve researched and traveled to
the planned projects at home
the road trips to family vacations, summer jobs, college and apartment move-ins
the unsolicited advice
the original songs written
the hugs divvied out
the strength shown in the hospital room
you business savvy
the movies watched, quoted and rewritten
the methods shared (on dish washing, home improvement, and New York navigation)
all of this is, and so much more
is the love you have wrapped around me and why I am thankful for you everyday.
Happy Father’s Day, Papa
i love you 🙂